The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
We were recently asked to share our testimony at church. The series is called “Dealing with it,” and our story was chosen to be part of week one: Dissapointment.
We were so honored to be chosen to share, and started brainstorming ideas and what to/not to share. Digging back into feelings we’ve experienced over the past three years was hard. Harder than we expected it would be. Some days were downright UGLY. But we trust God’s plan and kept working on it.
Beth Moore said something in her James study, “Mercy Triumphs,” that was very eye opening (The timing of this study couldn’t have been more perfect). She explained that we are called to “honesty with modesty.” Modesty? Really? How can we be modest in sharing our testimony following the loss of our daughter???
Because God will fill in the details.
So we let Him.
We chose to share just enough to touch the hearts of those who need it and let God lead the rest of the way.
The same way he leads us.
We chose to share the PURE joy He brought to us through our trials. (James 1:2)
We chose to Praise Him.
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|Marysville, WA USA: October 29th, 2014 at 5:55pm|
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.Isaiah 41:10
|Dried flower petals from Sophie’s Memorial Service|
Today, instead of a photo, I have chosen to share a very special video.
It is a prayer that is true.
Troubled soul don’t lose your heartCause joy and peace He brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting…There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to You always– Jeremy Camp –
I keep reflecting back to conversations that I have had over the past week, with women who have become close to me. I expressed my difficulty in being able to find forgiveness. I was asked (in a couple different ways)… Do I believe that my heart can be changed?
After today. After realizing how broken this world is (even in this small city we call home), I see how important it is for US to be able to find forgiveness. ALL. OF. US. For me, forgiving someone doesn’t mean I approve of their behavior, it means I’m letting it go of what they have done for my own healing and peace. I think if we were quicker to forgive than to get angry and hold grudges, this world would be a much better place.
Today, an awful thing happened. There was a shooting at a high school only a couple of miles from our house. At the high school Caleb will go to if we are still living here. At the high school that so many friends and family of friends are affiliated. Many families are hurting tonight, and my heart hurts for them. If the stories are true about the “motive” the shooter had, maybe something as simple as forgiveness could have saved lives and heartache. Maybe he could have found peace. Tonight, while rocking my son to sleep, I held him closer and tighter than ever before. I imagine so many mothers in our community are doing the same tonight while they pray for peace for the families involved in this terrible situation, and pray that their child never feels the pain the children today experienced.
Recently I have been let down, disappointed, and down right pissed off by people in my life.
Today opened my eyes. Today opened my heart.
Today I am choosing to forgive.
Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.