Capture Your Grief Day 29: Reflect

Dried flower petals from Sophie’s Memorial Service
I questioned whether or not we should participate in Capture Your Grief this year, and looking back I am so thankful that we decided to go forward with it. This blog started as a way to share Sophie’s medical updates with friends and family. Then it turned into a place to ask for prayers that our daughter would survive. It transitioned quickly into a place where we were angry. And sad. And scared. And hopeless. And hopeful. I could go on. Our hope is that this blog has become a resource for families like us. Families trying to find the light during the darkest time of their lives.
Our first year doing Capture Your Grief, the “wound” was still fresh. We had barely scratched the surface of our grief. Last year, we were full of hope because we had our rainbow baby and we were so surrounded by love. This year, we’ve learned a lot about ourselves. As parents, as a husband and wife, as a grieving family. We’ve been welcomed and comforted by so many wonderful people, and people who have been through the same thing as us. 
We’ve become closer to God, and with that, closer to peace.
Who knows what the next year will hold, but what we do know is…
Our relationship with grief is always evolving. 
This is still the beginning of our story.

Capture Your Grief Day 21: Relationship

This relationship means so much to me.
Our little family means so much to me.
After losing Sophie, my husband and I have changed in so many ways.
Each of our changes occurred at different times, at a different pace. 
We have struggled, fought, leaned on each other, and now our paths have finally aligned.
We are stronger than ever.
We have good days.
We have bad days.
But now we know…
If we can make it through losing a piece of our hearts,
we can make it through ANYTHING.

Always be humble and gentle. 
Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love. 
Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace.

Ephesians 4:2-3